"Is there such a thing as life after TdA?" I asked myself for days in a row. And the answer I had was negative in the beginning.
For about a week I felt continuously nauseous. Slightly, not sufficient to prevent me from eating, but enough to create some discomfort. Looking in a mirror after a long while I noticed changes: those legs were not mine, and I had also grown out of my bikini swimsuit. I was eating continuously, as if on a weight-gaining diet, thousands of calories a day while barely burning anything now. "Calories, more calories", my body was craving for. When in bed I was getting cramps in my legs. As for the bed, I had a hard time sleeping on a soft surface :-)
Clearly my body wanted something else. And my brain was stuck, suddenly unable to make any decisions. My system definitely had a hard time to switch to standalone mode. I was running around like a headless chicken.
The weather seemed to reflect my state. It was cold and grey and rainy. I felt trapped in a golden cage: Cape Town is one of the most beautiful cities in the world, yet winter in Cape Town did not seem to have very much appeal. It was time for a change. And so I left Cape Town shrouded in its winter mist and went on the famous Garden Route.
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you are so right! unable to make decisions, check. not appreciating what's around you, check. eating, eating, eating, then eating some more, check. lack of exercise and use of calories, check. true, true, and true.
Hi There
So glad to hear that you are "well"..if one can use that word to describe what you are dealing with.
AsI have said to you while on the tour... I have always appreciated you for the person you are and how you were able to maintain your connection to that aspect of yourself without the ego getting in the way. You will always be in my mind as the person in orange who reached out to all.
I trust that you will continue to follow what is your bliss and... take more great photographs...you have a talent there.
If you are ever in Toronto please make contact...I would love to see you.
Cheers
Jamie
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